"i’m not bitter" i say, bitterly, with a bitter expression
The second I get some real money, I’m going to go broke buying black leather pants
Ok so I just heard a song by Gil Scott-Heron called “The Subject Was Faggots” and I’m very disturbed and yet not surprised because so many black male revolutionaries of the 60s and 70s were homophobic and transphobic with so much conviction
And knowing this is true it still takes my breath away for a second to encounter the evidence
But I also have the potential to be comforted by the fact that on his last original album, one of the interludes includes this statement: “Being blessed is not just being able to float on air…I’m saying if you have to pay for the things you’ve done wrong, I’ve got a big bill coming.”
Perhaps that wasn’t atonement but it’s going to have to work.
But honestly I should just work harder at not seeing someone’s positive or negative actions as a total reflection of their entire character as a full person
Which is hard when it hurts
But that’s life. The end.
i’m on a whole ‘nother level of slept on & it’s really quite astounding
(Source: flatbellybella, via lordbape)
20 Years Old Today
Today I saw the most amazing rendering of Billie Holiday I’ve ever seen. Twice my height. Acrylic on canvas. Absolutely breathtaking.
I talked to the artist. He said I have it in me.
I came all the way to New Orleans just to breathe the air of the city.
My bones feel old, but I feel happy.
Did I mention that one of the last things I did as a teenager was to come out to my parents? Because I did that yesterday.
I love young black people we all we got because who else gon understand us